note #126

Beautiful wonderland
how I hate you all
as the stars were falling past
and the world was spinning fast
I stood alone
but not alone
in this crowd of seeming friends
feeling as I do when everything ends
angry and crying
out of breath
moving in slow motion with the song
fighting with the beat too long
I stumbled and fell
lost life and love
so everything would surely end
in my beautiful wonderland.

note #125

first wave
be brave
you're only drowning at the edges.